John 4:46-54 Jesus and His disciples left Samaria and returned to Galilee, first going to Cana. There, a "certain royal official" came to Jesus to request Him to come to Capernaum and heal his son. This man knew that his son was at the point of death and he knew that Jesus was his only hope. He had already taken a step of faith, leaving the bedside of his dying son to travel to Cana seeking Jesus. Yet, Jesus, knowing this said to him, "Unless you people see signs and wonders you simply will not believe."
But, this did not phase the royal official.. he just continued to plead with Jesus, "Sir, come down before my child dies."
Jesus did not go down.. but he said, "Go your way; your son lives." The man could have given up hope.. but, he chose to believe "the word that Jesus spoke to him and he started off.." The story continues.. the man meets his slaves on the way home.. they have good news.. his son is healed.. and it happened at the same hour that Jesus had spoken those words. "So the father knew that it was the same hour in which Jesus said to him, 'Your son lives'; and he himself believed and his whole household."
I see a progression of faith in this event. The man came to Jesus.. so perhaps there was a measure of faith present in his heart.. or was it just desperation? But.. it seems that the words Jesus spoke hit the mark.. "Unless you people see signs and wonders you simply will not believe.." Jesus says "will not".. not "cannot".. The man tries again.. he wants to believe.. he wants Jesus to do that sign.. that wonder.. to heal his son. And when Jesus tells him to go and that his son lives.. he chooses to believe. Perhaps it was a tentative belief .. a hopeful belief.. a step of faith. But... when he receives the good news and he checks the timing of the healing.. he knows it was Jesus who healed the boy.. Jesus who spoke the Word.. Jesus who did what He said and was Who He said He was. And then.. He BELIEVED! And his whole household did too.
Perhaps we can relate to this man.. this "certain royal official".. We come to Jesus with our desperate needs.. we hope.. we have only the smallest grain of faith. We do want to see the signs and wonders.. but what we need most.. and He knows we need it more than anything.. is the will... to make that choice.. to believe. He speaks to us even now.. we have the ability to believe in Him. It is not that we cannot.. it is that we will not believe. It is a choice that we must make our own selves.
Father, help us to move from unbelief to absolute, confident faith in the Lord Jesus Christ in all things... and in every circumstance. Open our ears to hear His voice.. the Word, Who became flesh.. Who speaks Your Words.. that we might know Him more and know You, our God and Creator.. in greater fullness than ever before. We know that faith is a gift that You provide, so we ask that You help us to make that choice.. to believe.. We ask this in the Name of Jesus Christ the Beloved Son and King of our hearts. Amen.